sometimes you win, sometimes you lose.
sometimes everthing goes well,

sometimes everything goes wrong.

I have lost sight of the light and all that awaits me; darkness.
My days have become blurred and unclear.
Even in my dreams i struggle.
save me,
Father.

are you people sick? physco?
until now i still don't know what goes on in those twisted minds.
despair & sorrow, joy & contentment.
why do you all choose to enjoy pain and suffering when you can choose the latter.
i'd wish for myself to stay conscious, keep my mind in check.
although i know slowly, surely, i'm losing it too.
is there any way out?
save me.

its been a long time.

can you comprehend it all

its been a stressful week.
with the cca showcase performance and me being the "choreographer"when i was supposedly only performing inside my cca showcase group.
what should i have done?
no one took up the role,
no one bothered to do anything.
should i have left it as it were.
should i have kept my mouth shut all the way?
maybe i should have.

in any case, no ones to blame but me.
not that i couldn't be bothered with anything,
just that i have never done a choreographed a showcase.
i'd go on and on about the details but that probably wouldn't be a good excuse anyway.

the thing i am most grateful and thankful for is the PASSION AND COMMITMENT from my dancers.
that alone was really more than enough i suppose.

all these stress has really got me thinking and hoping i had someone right here with me.

I admit. I am so confused.

when i first left singapore i never expected anything much.
but the 13 days i spent in korea soon became the BEST THIRTEEN DAYS OF MY LIFE.
heres why;
the people there are extremely nice(although they are experts at queue cutting),
the weather there is so good,
the places are filled with life,
shops are filled with all the things i wanna buy.

one fine night there,
she seemed like a dream formed right before my very eyes.

a clouded mind. filled with unclear thoughts.